Challenges

Challenges my inability to recreate my past present and future and it begins with the stress the hardships everything do you honestly know the real me whos hiding behind all the lies no you really dont know me im the one who walks lonely in the halls with her head down the one who doesn't feel good on the brightest sunniest days. the reason the scars that he left my heart is left open and i cant deal with the pain. im to the breaking point i dont trust anyone except god and jesus nothing in life is ever what it seems i just dont get why people judge me hate me love me using me yelling at me im fed up with iy i cant find any alternate decisions everything is loosing control my brain filling with lies. my only hope is this poetry makes me feel less empty and more filled.! i love you poetry